Well all, it seems that I am back in a position where I need to apologise for yet another long period of absence.
The truth is that the way my mental health issues present themselves is generally not with a sudden dramatic or obviously noticeable ‘crash’ (although yes they sometimes happen) but with gentle, slow, gradual declines.
Which of course means that very often I – and others – don’t notice them. Until I reach a point where the resultant fall-out – bills not being paid, the house becoming a total mess, greater levels of isolation, emails not being answered and thus mounting up etc. reach a point where they do become noticeable.
It also, of course, also very often means that the resultant damage of such episode is greater as the episodes themselves are more drawn out than with a sudden crash. And additionally, since I do tend to isolate most of the time anyway and since most of these signs are specific to the confines of my home or personal accounts , it also means that to all intents and purposes to any onlooker, I appear to be ‘coping’ normally.
So yes, I do apologise to all those who may have emailed me or submitted articles for inclusion in respect of the Guild and it’s blog. My apparent lack of response or enthusiasm is neither intended or deliberate. Nor does it reflect on your emails or articles. It is just a result of where I have been within my own head for some time now.
Once again, I find myself in a position where, as I look at my own personal blogs and blogs such as this one and others which I run as a community service or in order to raise awareness of issues close to my heart, I am stunned by the amount of time which has passed since my last posts. And this concerns and saddens me greatly.
You are all, very important to me. Just as are the issues for which these blogs are written around. And I am so very sorry for the long void of activity.
I am hoping that over the next few days/weeks I can catch up on the emails I should have responded to and also begin to publish articles or guest submissions which have been submitted. Should they be suitable of course.
So please accept my apologies and please bare with me. I will do my best, I promise.
Kind regards and God bless you.